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I Smelled Fire

I smelled fire.
The moment I walked into the house from the garage, its pungent odor invaded my nostrils, but I couldn’t see the source.

To my right I saw him sleeping on the couch with the TV blaring ‘Lethal Weapon 3’ on TBS, the ingredients for the dinner he had promised to make while I was at class sat on the kitchen counter. I wondered how long that pork had been out.

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Soulmate

soulmate
I could write a book about all the ways I love you…

I’ve finally found someone with whom I share myriad interests and passions.
We enjoy the same kinds of movies (horror and comedies- nothing that makes either one of us feel emotions).
We have the same taste in music (all over the place; much like my mindset).
Figuring out our food options is never an issue (sushi again? Sounds great!).
I think I’ve found my soulmate.

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Ladies, Behaviors of a Man that you Deserve

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Ladies, find a man who you deserve.

Find one who notices the goosebumps on your thighs, rubs his hands together and blows his hot breath on his palms, then rubs his warm extremities on your legs.

Find a man who is dependent on you in some respects, yet invaluable in others. You should both better the other.

… opens his eyes on a lazy Sunday morning, smiles sleepily, and kisses your elbow, because it’s the first skin he can get to, and he needs to touch his lips to you immediately.

… who makes you laugh uncontrollably and genuinely.

… who appreciates YOU: your sense of humor, your quirks, your un-made up face.

… who doesn’t even flinch when you storm in the morning, angry and ugly; pissed at everyone, pissed at life, pissed at the morning sun. He just simply says “Coffee?” (Bonus points for making it himself)

… who doesn’t lie.

… who doesn’t judge.

… who hopes that you’ll talk back, then truly LISTENS when you do.

Ladies, you deserve the best, as do I, though sometimes it’s hard to realize that. We make excuses, we try to change them.
Love isn’t supposed to be hard.
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P.S.- I compiled this list based on my son’s actions toward me within the past 24 hours.

P.P.S.- Before you all “aww” about his behaviors, please note that on the flip side he outwardly refused to make his bed and/or clean his room, smacked his sister on the arm, and made up a song with the chorus, “Girls are such stupid-faces, with dumb butts.”

Hot Mess

**Disclaimer: Poor language choices to follow. Perhaps it shows the extremities of my messiness**

 

I am a hot fucking mess.

There is sand stuck to my exposed skin, laced between my toes, and caught in my windblown hair from yoga class this morning, held on the beach on this cold and damp and EARLY morning.

A freshly penned speeding ticket sits in the passenger side of my Prius. I mean, come on, isn’t the trooper aware that my car is unable to maintain speeds past 65 mph without beginning to tremble? I’m not exactly a threat on the road.

I had no time to put on makeup before, so my blonde eyelashes look like the white falsies that a drag-queen might wear to a diva competition and my brows, almost the same overly-milked-oatmealish color as my skin, look nonexistent. I must’ve scratched the side of my face while I slept, because I noticed a red gash stretching across my cheek. I squeeze my eyes tightly, trying to recall the dream from the night before that caused my abrasiveness. No memories though.

My finger nail polish is chipped: noticeably so. My toes too. Crap. I look like a hot fucking mess.

I focus on myself internally. That’s what really matters, right?

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First Date With a Friend (Segment D)

The Final Chapter: At the Concert

Segment A

Segment B 

Segment C

Concert

The screams of 50,000 ecstatic fans filled our ears before we even entered Shea.
“Glory Days!”
“Dancing in the Dark!”
“Born to Run!”

People at the concert kept yelling out the names of The Boss’s most popular songs, hoping they’d be played, not taking into account that the set list had been created and maintained throughout the entirety of his tour so far. Though I wasn’t the hugest Springsteen fan, the excitement of being in the stadium amongst the uproar of the people and in the presence of such a popular figure was thrilling. Chris and I walked (a little on the wobbly side from our earlier cocktails) to the doors and handed the man our tickets. I half expected him to say that they were no good, but he instead pointed out our seats, far closer to the stage than I had anticipated.

“One of my Dad’s patient’s gave him these tickets,” Chris said in a voice that was meant to sound like a conspiratorial whisper, but was instead a strange hushed-yell, attempting to be heard over the crowd. We made our way down and took our seats momentarily, then popped back up with the rest of the crowd to sing (shout out what lyrics I knew, make up others) and dance (what some might call convulsions on my part). We laughed and smiled and made googly eyes at each other. He was just a friend, but…

As Bruce performed his signature, “Born in the USA” for his second encore, I looked up at Chris, who caught my eyes in his own. I stood up on my tiptoes and I kissed him. I kissed my friend.

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First Date With a “Friend” (Segment C)

Segment A

Segment B

 

When Maggie cargot home, nine minutes late, I was already in the car. “Get in,” I said through the open passenger-side window, sounding remarkably predator-esque.

“What?”

“Get in the car; I’ll explain on the way.” Now I was beginning to sound like a marauder who’d just finished off a bank heist. After a hasty explanation of the plan and a promise of 50% of the payment when I received it from the Morgans, I was on my way back home.

When I pulled into my driveway, my insides screamed. There, in back of my mom’s sedan, sat an unfamiliar silver Honda Accord. Shit! How long had he been here? Did my mom say anything embarrassing? Are there going to be baby pictures of me naked in the tub out on the coffee table for him to peruse? I took a breath, hoped that my face had returned to a normal color (rather than the fuschia-shade that it tended toward when I was flustered), and opened the front door.

“HeysorryI’mlateIwasdroppingmysisteroffattheplacewhereI’msupposedtobedogsittingIhopeyouweren’twaitinglongsosorry-” My mom, thankfully, cut me off from my nervous, incoherent rambling.

“No, no. Chris and I were just talking about your plans to see the concert tonight. It sounds like a lot of fun.”

“Yeah, I haven’t been here long. We should probably get a move on though, if we want to make it on time. Thank you Mrs. Anderson.” He was so freaking polite. I kept my mouth shut tightly this time and nodded, then kissed my mom goodbye.

We jumped in his car and were on our way. The radio was playing Kashmir. “Oh! I love Led Zeppelin!” I was thankful that my voice had toned down in volume and speed.

“Yeah- great song,” he replied. “I figured we’d stop at a liquor store on the way in to grab some drinks for our journey”

God forbid a couple of 23 year olds didn’t have alcohol while participating in an activity.

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